I am in a funk.
There. I said it.
I don't think it is a depression funk, per say. I think it is a normal, life-is-a-pain-and-kind-of-sucks-sometimes funk. I think.
The Thesis is still not finished. It is getting much closer, but damn. It is still alive and taking up much too much of my headspace and energy. I just need to wrap it up, defend it and call it good. I hope to ship it off to my advisor next week. I am sure there will be more revisions after he sees it, but it will be his problem and not mine for a bit.
No doubt this has plenty to do with my mood.
We have gone three days without a fire. It is nearly 80 degrees today. Problem is, I don't believe it.
I keep looking to the horizon to see when storm clouds will move in. There aren't any visible today. I feel totally discombobulated by this turn in weather-related events. Wha? Could it be? Could summer finally be here?
I am not sold just yet.
I have a therapy appointment this afternoon. I am not in the mood. I just want to be left alone today, you know? Hm. Maybe I am in a depression funk. Shit.
Maybe not. Maybe I just don't feel like leaving work, where I am swamped, to go talk to someone about how my mother had more of an impact on my head than I realized. Maybe I am just not in the fucking mood.
I am going to plant my ITTY BITTY garden this weekend. I think. Depends on if I believe Winter has finally left us for a few months.
Perhaps being outside and doing something productive, that has nothing to do with sitting at a computer, will help. Let's hope so.
DAMMIT. I need to cheer up already. What are some things that have made you grateful or delighted lately? Help a grumpy girl out, will ya?