Yesterday was an off day. I has a really, really hard time getting out of bed, and then as soon as I got home from work I curled up on the couch and didn't move. It was less that I couldn't get out of bed and more that I didn't care to. Either way, kind of scary and not fun. I was lethargic and blah all day. It wasn't the worst day I've had, but it was the first 4 day (on my little scale of 1 to 10) since being on meds.
All of this reminds me to bring up with my therapist tomorrow that I really, really want to learn some behavioral changes/tools/techniques that I can employ when feeling a funk coming on or find my self in the middle of one. I have some tools I use for anxiety attacks; I'd like a similar toolchest to help me with the funky days, too.
I noticed myself saying, "I should get up," "I should do the dishes," "I should go read for The Thesis," etc. After a while, I reminded myself that it was okay to have an off day. I reminded myself I don't have to believe those "shoulds." Tomorrow will be better.
I am feeling a bit better today.