Friday, August 10, 2012

Friday Five

1. Health Kick Update!

I've lost 11 pounds and I feel SO MUCH BETTER. My gut feels better, I don't feel uncomfortable. It is great. I'd like to lose 12 more and that will put me at my goal. My goal is 7 pounds heavier than the itty-bitty weight I'd managed to stay at all throughout my 20s without any effort. (Why, oh why, did I not realize I was smokin' hot?!?! So many days not in shorts, skirts, or a bikini and FOR WHAT? Anyway.)

I do not think Itty-Bitty Weight is going to be possible without tears.So, in my late 30s a 7 pound compromise it is.

Weight Watchers is pretty easy, for the most part. Although I am so very sad at how points-expensive alcohol is. DAMN IT THAT IS NOT FAIR. I am also so much more active and it just feels so good! I am still a total weakling and totally out of shape, but am slowing starting to get better.

Of course, last night I went out of control and ate 5 slices of this AMAZING thin crust, wood-fired pizza at a new restaurant in town. So. Yummy. Also had two dirty martinis that were so damn good they went down smooth. I haven't had a martini in about three years. They should have been more difficult to drink.

Yay for a good restaurant with a great bartender!


2. It is a damn good thing A. and I are going to get fire wood over the weekend. If that doesn't earn me about a gazillion points I will be seriously distraught. It is so much work to get fire wood! Carrying trees! Huge trees! All fucking day!

3. The original plan was to spend all weekend getting firewood. However, A. received some bad news this morning.

A. grew up with three families, basically. His family spent holidays, went on vacations, went camping, etc. with two other families. Well, the mother in one of the families, B,  was diagnosed with cancer throughout her body a couple of months ago.

She is not doing well. Her pain cannot be managed and so they've called in Hospice. All of the kids are heading back to be with her again. (They've been there every few weeks since the diagnosis.) The saddest part is her daughter is eight months pregnant with her second child and cannot travel to see her. It is really difficult on the daughter.

So, A. is losing what is like another mother to him, too. I am so heartbroken for all of them. I've met B and visit her frequently. (They are in a town about 45 minutes from here.) She is a really wonderful person.

I've watched this before with my own mother. I would be surprised if she has another month.

So. Long, shitty story short, we will be spending one of our weekend days visiting B and the family.

4.  I am so worried about A. He hates his job SO MUCH, has been applying to other jobs and not getting anything, feels like a failure with FIVE FUCKING DEGREES, has an employee he supervises that his boss HATES, the stability of his job is actually totally up in the air, and now this. I just wish I could love and hug all of this away for him.

5. We have not adopted a new pup yet. We are going to talk about it more this weekend. I am calling a couple of nearby shelters to see if it is possible for Belle to come with and meet potential siblings.

I'd like to foster, though the (HORRIBLE) shelter in town does not have a fostering program. They try to deny they are a kill shelter, but they are. If they do not have enough room, then someone gets put down. I can't think about it because I literally start to spiral into a super freakout. Then I want to adopt all the babies.

I honestly do not know how I will walk out of there with one pup and know I am leaving the others behind. Oh, God.

Bonus: I've often thought I should try to start a no-kill shelter in town. I haven't the foggiest idea how to start. I suppose the Humane Society or ASPCA would have some info?

Happy Friday to you! Hug those close to your for me.


  1. I am so sorry for A. Truly hating your job is just... soul sucking. My sister is there right now, in the midst of corporate-climbing she is on a really crappy rung, I guess, and even though she only has to do it for a year she grows more miserable every day. And then losing a mother figure right now. I send him big hugs!

  2. Thanks, Sarah. I am sorry for your sister. Please send her a hug from me; so much about earning a living just sucks.

  3. 1. Congrats! And anytime I have a Total Lifestyle Change ie go on a diet, I remember how the best part of it is how indulgences feel so very, very good. Which I'm pretty sure means you're SUPPOSED to indulge. Obviously.

    2. Yay for firewood collecting! And watch your back health.

    3. That sucks and I'm so sorry.

    4. Ugh I am also so sorry for this part. A. seems due for some really good karmic rewards soon (you listening, Universe?)

    5. Starting your own shelter sounds like a potentially awesome project. It also makes me tired just thinking of it, but I was tired anyway. I say go for it. I have a distant acquaintance who started a no-kill shelter in her little Nevada town, and I could probably track her down if you'd like to contact someone who's done it.

  4. Oh dear! So many agitating and upsetting things!

    One of my favorite parts about dieting is how very much I appreciate treats, i.e. things I eat routinely when I'm not dieting. When I'm not dieting, I'm like, "Yum, some M&Ms." When I AM dieting, it's like "OMG, THESE ARE AMAZING, SO DELICIOUS!!"

  5. I'm so sorry for A. That's a double whammy at a really bad time.

    I hope you find a way to start an animal shelter. There are just too many homeless critters out there. The whole idea sounds hearbreaking, exhausting and rewarding to me all at once. The world needs people like you who are willing to do things like that.

    A word on kill shelters, if you'll indulge me. I used to volunteer at our local animal shelter. It's not a "no kill" shelter, but I still support them today. I learned during that time is that there is simply not enough room for all the homeless animals. We can expand. We can promote the foster program and "Get away" programs, etc. But the bottom and sad line is that some animals have been so abused and neglected and damaged that they're not adoptable. When the shelter is full, giving that animal mercy in order to make room for an animal that has a better chance at a better life, is a gut wrenching but real decision. It's a better alternative than turning animals who have a real chance at finding a forever home away. It sucks. And I hated knowing it, but I get it.


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